Friday, February 10, 2012

Today, I Become a Mother

I woke up this morning with a giddy excitement because today I become a mother. Our three boys move in after school today. Last night, Andy and I had our last supper with just two people (Sam was out). Last weekend, we celebrated our second anniversary by going to Chattanooga, so I guess that was our "babymoon." This morning instead of grabbing my hospital bag and munching on ice chips I brewed up a pot of Peet's coffee, tried to read my Bible (but I couldn't focus) and then hit the YMCA for a run to get the jitters out (it didn't work). Then I made a quick run by the store to get some essentials like 2% milk and "normal" salad (the boys will eat iceberg lettuce and carrots with ranch, but my exotic blends of field greens, chickpeas and feta do not go over well). Sweet friends are filling my freezer with meals to use on the days that cooking doesn't seem feasible. I am trying to make homework stations and plan morning routines as well as decipher doctors and boy scout leaders. Eager grandparents are making plans for their weekend visits to meet the newest family members.

Who knows what our coming months hold? We are praying for a smooth emotional transition for our boys. We are praying that they will find joy by being in our family. We are praying that we bond and attach to one another. We are praying that laughter fills this place as much as the stinky boy smells will.

So, I won't spend today in a hospital checking vital signs, but when I go to bed tonight I will be a mama to three precious boys. This morning when I couldn't read my Bible, I finally just flipped open and this is what I saw, Psalm 127. Perfect.

 Unless the Lord builds the house,
those who build it labor in vain.
Unless the Lord xwatches over the city,
the watchman stays awake in vain.
It is in vain that you rise up early
and go late to rest,
eating the bread of anxious ytoil;
for he gives to his zbeloved asleep.
Behold, bchildren are a heritage from the Lord,
cthe fruit of the womb a reward.
Like arrows in the hand of da warrior
are the children1 of one's youth.
Blessed is the man
who fills his quiver with them!
He shall not be put to shame
when he speaks with his enemies ein the gate.2


mach3mom said...

Yes and amen! I was just reading Prov.10:28 this morning, and meditating on how my expectations in anything other than the Lord always end in dissatisfaction, but when I hope in the Lord I am filled with joy regardless of what life brings. Keep your eyes on Jesus and you'll have joy even in the tough moments with the boys, those moments you didn't "expect"! I love you and your faith!

somecallmechristy said... inspire me! My prayers are with you and your family as you follow Gods will on this amazing journey! You are giving these boys the gift of go girl!! Congratulations on becoming a mom today!

ChristyS said...

I know that you don't know me, but I go to church with your mother-in-law. I saw her post about your special day today, and clicked to see your blog. I am very excited for you and want to thank you for sharing about your three sons. I have been a foster parent in the past and have wanted to adopt as well, but struggle with thinking too much about my needs instead of about what those sweet children need. Thank you for sharing your heart! I will be praying for you!
Christy Schneller